more word vomit...

...because I felt more coming up.

Start time- 10:00pm

-- I have learned not to plan. Or at least, I try not to. Nothing goes according to plan. I believe that things have a way of working themselves out. Welcome the new path. Let it be right.
-- I'd like to think that everything happens for a reason, but why do wonderful people have to die? I don't see the reason in that. There's too many bad things in the world to believe that.
-- I have never been a really great friend. I didn't grow up with close friends, I grew up being close to family. Do I like being a shitty friend that never calls people? No, I hate it. I think I depend on myself too much. I've learned to be very independent. I spent a lot of time by myself at home as a kid, I enjoyed it. Not used to having close friends. I do have a lot of friends, just none that I talk to every day.
-- Alcohol messes up my stomach now. And it's a bummer. Because a beer loosens me up when drawing.
-- I love seeing people that have passion for things. I feel like I can sense a passionate person upon first meeting them. You can just see it in their eyes, or hear it in their voice, or see it by the way they carry themselves. I feel lucky to have the chance to embrace my passions (whatever they are at the time), and to have the time and opportunity to.
-- My car is SO disgustingly dirty. One of the many downsides of living in an apartment complex: no hose. I miss visiting my dad at his shop so I can wash my car using all the fancy car cleaning tools and liquids.
-- Today my boyfriend and I saw about a hundred maggots on the ground by the dumpster. It was in my top 5 most disgusting things I've ever witnessed.
-- I have trypophobia. It's the fear of objects with irregular patterns of holes. Don't google image search it. I want to puke out all my insides every time I see stuff like that. I can't handle it.
-- I want some new band t's.
-- I don't think anyone will read my blog.


That's enough for now.

k.r.

word vomit

10 minutes of everything that pops up in my head.

Start time- 9:42.

Ready, go. 

-- My Billabong internship is great. It motivates me and makes me feel more fulfilled.

-- Earthquakes scare the shit out of me. 

-- Eczema is hell.

-- Halloween is heaven.

-- I want to take a self-defense class.

-- I want to take a class that discusses how to be connected with nature. Explore my spiritual side.

-- I miss the half price book store in my hometown.

-- I wish there were places with no people and more nature in the Orange County. Places that are easy to drive to with no traffic.

-- I need to buy clothes that actually fit.

-- I should start getting my jeans altered.

-- My cousin gets married next week, it's going to be weird and so frickin fun. I can't wait to see my family.

-- Sculpting is a lot harder than I anticipated.

-- Drawing is beginning to be fun again now that I gained some confidence from my latest art piece. 

-- I get to see BoxTrolls on Sunday, after 2 years (it seems) of waiting.

-- I need some new (to me), chill, rock/indie music in my life.

-- Everyday I tell myself to try yoga....and then I don't. "Tomorrow". 

-- I am not a morning person. Why does my body not cooperate with me at 6am? 

-- My boyfriend is trying to grow a beard and mustache. It's been about a week of no shaving and he looks scraggly and adorable, especially when wearing a beanie.

-- I can't wait to wear beanies again so I can hide this messy hair. 

-- If I don't go to the Harry Potter theme park within the next year, I will be heartbroken.

-- Speaking of heartbreak, I need to stop watching documentaries and reading news articles. I need a break from the sadness and misery (how lucky I am to be able to avoid it).

-- I wish I would've ended this on a positive note.

-- Okay. I have a closet full of fresh, clean clothes. Yes. Positive.

k.r.

a quick note on "selfies"

Back when I was in junior college I used to take mini-road trips around the Bay Area by myself. They were my escape from reality, a way of being alone with my thoughts, an opportunity to listen to my music loud and not have my terrible singing judged, etc. These trips were so sudden, so out of nowhere, that I would just get up and go. Sometimes I would be driving home from my dad's house and then take a random side road which lead me to taking a 45 minute drive to nowhere in particular. I loved it. And I rarely had a camera on me. And definitely no tripod. And let's face it, being alone was favored over inviting someone to tag along. There wasn't usually anybody nearby that I could ask to take a picture of me and well, let's be real here, that photo would probably look like shit because I would be awkward as hell cheesing in front of this stranger.  Obviously, the best option of getting a picture of myself at these beautiful places...was a selfie (back then I had never heard of the term).

A "Selfie", to me, means independence. It always has.

- k.r.

the latest infatuations

number one //
*skateboarding videos & documentaries

oh how I wish I had the courage to skate...

number two //
*orange is the new black

why yes, yes I did watch 2 whole seasons in one weekend.

number three  // 
*reusable water bottles

I have been searching for the perfect reusable water bottle. When you're indecisive like me, you can't just "pick one". I'm looking for one that's BPA-free, dishwasher safe, doesn't leak, easy to clean, and kinda cute. It's ridiculous, I know.

number four  // 
*her (spike jonze, 2013)

design perfection. everything in this film is absolutely beautiful.


number five  // 
*Light nightclub in Las Vegas

We went here for my cousin's bachelorette party last month. the motion graphics displayed on the screens and the costumes left me speechless.


so what are your latest infatuations?

- k.r.

First things first,

A short description of me
I am an indecisive, overthinker, with a memory bad enough to forget who I am (not literally) and what I like on a daily basis. A t-shirt, jeans, and flats kinda gal. I am an illustration student who feels out of place. I'm a design and merchandising intern at Billabong! I live miserably in the hot ass, overpopulated Orange County but I was born and raised in the San Francisco Bay Area. I love my family and I miss them every single day. I love to draw. Well...I used to. Trying to get that back.

I live with my weird boyfriend Chris (aka "Cmu") who I can be my complete self around. We like to play video games and stream it online so the whole world can see. 

I also have a black cat named "Seelie", she's as weird as Chris and I.





why am I making a new blog?
+  I am feeling completely unmotivated to do anything creative.
+ I am out of touch with myself.
+  being in school pisses me off.
+  to express myself. 
+  I need a visual diary since my memory fails me.
+  it will give me something to do.
+  because I can! freedom of speech, whaaaat. 
+  so my family can see what I'm up to (rather than hear about it over the phone).
+  this could lead to other creative activities (get back into photography? bring back the videocamera and make some youtube videos? practice some graphic design? No expectations, but that'd be neat.)
+  to share stuff! 


what will you see in this blog ?
honestly, I have no idea. I become infatuated with random things on a weekly basis...and then I get bored and move on. This blog will be full of those brief infatuations.  



- k.r.